muddybrooks

My experiences post total pancreatectomy.

Blog Week Day #4- What makes dealing with diabetes and emotional issue for u & how do you cope.

on May 19, 2017

I can’t believe it’s already day #4 of Blog Week!!!! It’s going by WAY TOO FAST!!!! Maybe we can #blamePete!!!!

In my daily management of my diabetes, I assign emotional value to my blood sugar readings!!!! I know I shouldn’t!! I know it is just a number that allows me to make a decision about what I need to do in the near future to keep my blood sugars in range. But I feel badly when I’m out of range and I blame myself for “being a BAD diabetic”!!!

Mr Sandy follows my Dexcom numbers on his phone so he knows at all times what my blood sugar is doing. He’ll send me a text if I’m really far out of range just to make sure I’m aware of my number. But I always feel guilty that maybe I didn’t wait long enough to eat after I prebolused, for example. Or if I’m low, how did I not count my carbs right and take the correct amount of insulin.

I read Dr Stephen Ponder’s book, Sugar Surfing, and I have been trying to apply those principles to my daily management but I can’t seem to attain the in range numbers that are shown in the book. Does this make me a bad diabetic?? Unfortunately, my brain immediately goes too blaming myself for the out of range number. But my heart knows I’m trying my best to manage and the number is JUST A NUMBER!!!! I wish I didn’t do this but It’s just how it goes for me!!! YDMV-Your Diabetes May Vary.

I’m working on this and I’m always telling myself that I am not defined by my numbers!! It’s just a number that helps me to make treatment decisions. But I’m a work in progress and I haven’t gotten to the point yet that my numbers don’t carry an emotional value.

My diabetes medical team is AWESOME and just takes my numbers as points on a graph that helps them evaluate how I’m doing. I never get the “Blame Game” from them. It’s just me but hopefully someday I’ll get where my numbers are just that, numbers & not a source of guilt.

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