muddybrooks

My experiences post total pancreatectomy.

The Holy Grail, so to speak.

I’m going to start with a disclaimer that I am not acting as a medical professional for the purpose of this blog although I am an RN. I’m not an expert on any one’s diabetes care but my own and the words contained in this blog come from personal experience and my own opinion only.

There, now that that’s out of the way…

I had a very exciting day last week where I was being considered as a subject for the next leg of the Bionic Pancreas clinical trails. The Bionic Pancreas (BP) is one of the few closed loop systems usually referred to as an Artificial Pancreas (AP), for lack of a better, more accurate word. This device is the result of a collaboration between Boston University and Dr Ed Damiano & Massachusetts General Hospital’s diabetes research and Dr Stephen Russell. What makes this AP different from the others is that ultimately it will be a bi-hormonal system, meaning it will administer both insulin and glucagon. Many scientists are looking for a more stable form of glucagon than the current standard that is only stable for 24 hours. It is rumored that a company in the United States has developed a form of glucagon that is equally as stable as insulin but is not available just yet.  They’re still working on it. Hopefully soon!!

I actually had the device IN MY HANDS!!!! I couldn’t believe I was about to use the bionic pancreas as it is now. But after an hour and a half of learning the intricacies  and how to use the device, all my hopes were dashed!!! The researcher frowned when I mentioned (AGAIN!!! As I had also mentioned in my initial email.) that I am a surgical type one. She then proceeded to tell me I was  not eligible to participate due to my not being a “pure” diabetic. WHAT???!!! Because I did not have autoimmune type one diabetes (T1D) (apparently referred to as pure diabetes) they declined my offer to participate.

I was devastated and found myself explaining to the researcher that although the origin of my T1D was not autoimmune, my lack of a pancreas made my diabetes behave identical to any one with an autoimmune T1D. She left the room to ask someone with a little more authority than herself in regards to the study but came back with the same, “I’m sorry but you’re ineligible.

I had held the Bionic Pancreas in my hands!!!!! This little unassuming device has the potential to change my diabetes life and the cognitive burden of dealing with diabetes decisions 24/7 but because I’m “unpure”, I’m not a candidate. I thanked her and let myself out trying to hold back tears. I don’t cry easily but I had assumed I would come home with my own loaner BP because I had explained my surgical status to the intake research assistant who did not say I was ineligible. I really believe in this developing technology and the Bionic Pancreas in particular, so I was devastated to find out I couldn’t participate.

I’ve been following the progress of the Bionic Pancreas since my surgery in 2013 and have always felt it would be the treatment of choice for me when it finally gains FDA approval and hits the market. ( Just a reminder, I had my pancreas removed in 2013 due to 27 years of chronic pancreatitis. I also had a failed auto-islet transplant which means they transplanted back into my body my own islet cells in the hopes I would not become a person with diabetes (PWD) On my return trip home I started to think that maybe because I was a surgical T1D, when it finally comes on the market, will I also be ineligible from using it because of my unpureness???? This was a disturbing thought to me. The Bionic Pancreas, to me, is like the Holy Grail. The research they are collecting points out that this little device made by BetaBionics (the new company started to eventually market the product) significantly improves blood glucose (BG) control as compared with usual care.

Luckily, Ed Damiano, CEO of BetaBionics and co-lead researcher from Boston University, was speaking locally the same week that I was turned down. I trekked on over to the venue to listen to him speak and  to ask him personally to think about including surgical T1D’s into the clinical trials.

As he presented a brief history of the BP and then showed us the new trial data, I was even more in love with this little box that hopefully one day will improve my brain space from having to make countless diabetes decisions in my day to day life!! After he was through presenting, there was the usual Q&A where I asked him about including us surgical, unpure PWD. He remarked that my visit just a few days prior and my trying to make a case to allow me to participate resulted in a flurry of emails between many of the researchers eventually making it to Dr Damiano”s and Dr Russell’s inboxes.

The result of all those emails is that from this point forward, surgical T1D’s WILL BE INCLUDED in further legs of the trials!!!!! WOO HOO!!!! Music to my ears!!!! However, I was still not going to be able to participate in the current study that started this last week. That’s OK though!!! A good friend of mine, Sarah MacLeod from the blog, “What Sarah Says” is participating and it would have been so cool if we could have done it together. But, I’m going to have to live vicariously through her as she goes on with the study. Also, at the most recent meet up of our Boston South Diabetes Sisters PODS group, I discovered that one of our attendees is also participating. This is so cool!! Although I’m not an active participant, I will be able to experience it through these women’s eyes & get their perspectives on the device.

If you know anyone with surgical diabetes, let her or him know that they CAN participate in these particular T1D BP trials, as can “pure”, autoimmune T1D people. Have you considered participating in any kind of medical research trials? What type? & what was your experience? I’m very interested in science and medicine in particular, so the thought of being included as a clinical research trial subject is very exciting. Stay tuned because this artificial pancreas (again not the most accurate word) area of study is booming especially with Medtronics soon releasing their 670G closed loop system. Anyone using it yet?? I’m interested in how that works too!!

 

Thank you for taking the time to read my post and HAPPY SPRING!!!!!

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How Time Flies!!!

It has been two days plus an entire year since I last wrote a post! I can’t believe a whole 367 days has passed!! As my last post reads, I don’t have a good excuse for being away. Life took over and kept me away, so it’s been an eventful year both personally and medically. Over the next couple of posts, I’ll attempt to fill you in on the goings on in my life, so I’ll start with my recent weekend which was AMAZING!!!

A couple of months ago, I saw a Facebook post from Christel Marchand Aprigliano , an AMAZING human being who is as vertically challenged as I am and whom I am actually almost an inch taller than!! (I felt VERY tall for the weekend!) at http://diabetesunconference.com, advertising the upcoming Diabetes Unconference in Atlantic City September 9, 10 & 11. I was at a particularly low point that day, so, I decided, a peer support conference was exactly what I needed at that time in my life. The write up describing  what exactly an “unconference” was intrigued me. So, I registered and paid the fee to be able to attend. I didn’t even look at the calendar to see if I had anything going on that weekend or in September in general. I just decided I was going to go, come Hell or high water!!!!

Fast forward to Labor Day weekend 2016…by then I had hotel accomodations and my flights booked but I was starting to freak out!! Who did I think I was going alone to a diabetes “unconference” where I only knew a handful of people & by that I mean, I could count on one hand the people I knew and still have fingers left over!! And, those that I knew I had only met once or twice before in person. But many of the attendees I had communicated with online through the DOC (Diabetes Online Community) and social media, so I sort of knew them although we’d never met face to face. I wasn’t sure if that kind of contact counted as knowing those people. I was totally freaked!!! I was traveling all the way to southern New Jersey by myself hoping that I would connect with a few folks during the weekend & hoping to have a good enough time to stay  the extra day I had planned to hang with my new friends. Who was I kidding??? This had the potential to be a complete disaster!!

I arrived on Thursday, September 8. The conference didn’t officially start until registration on Friday at 2pm. I wandered around Thursday while I was waiting for my hotel room to be ready for me to occupy. I felt COMPLETELY out of place!! I walked up and down the Boardwalk trying to find something to do to occupy my time but I was afraid to stray too far from the hotel so that I didn’t get too lost and not be able to find my way back. When I say I felt out of place, I mean I stuck out like a sore thumb amongst lots of people dressed for a day at the beach or in clothing to match the hot & humid weather, while I was in black yoga pants & a long sleeved button down shirt sweating profusely!! (It was chilly in Boston the morning I left.) I didn’t expect the stifling heat and humidity that greeted me at the  Philadelphia Airport. You could say I was a tad overdressed for the beach!! I bought an ice cream, found a bench and parked myself there until my room was ready, second guessing my decision to come here at all. Luckily, my room was ready pretty quickly, so I retreated to my room and tried to decide if I should just admit defeat and get a flight home now if I could get a shuttle to the airport.

After being in my room for a little bit, I had talked myself into just turning around and heading home. But, WAIT ONE MINUTE!!!!!! WTH!!!!! I’m not a quitter!!! I don’t back down from a challenge, yet here I am doing EXACTLY that!!! I hadn’t even given the weekend, never mind the conference a chance to start before I threw in my white towel. I had been TOTALLY looking forward to this unconference for months!!! Knock it off, Ms Brooks!!! U can do this!!! I took a deep breath & decided to throw caution to the wind and give this weekend and conference a chance. So, I checked into the Facebook page our attendees had been using for months to chat amongst ourselves and blindly asked what was up for dinner. I successfully managed to find a friend I had met two years prior and whom I had been in contact with online & her husband, as well as a couple of other people who’s names I recognized from Facebook but had never actually met. We all headed to the restaurant down the Boardwalk where other attendees were. Then the magic began…

Over the weekend, I met LOTS of other PWD (persons with diabetes) and many PLU (People who love us) whom all left an indelible mark on my heart. I’m talking amazing people whom welcomed me into the “Tribe” with open arms. The actual sessions that I attended were AMAZING!!! This was a safe place to open up about living with and trying to manage Diabetes no matter the type. And open up we did!! Everyone who attended the Unconference had agreed to a social media blackout and cell phone free zone while we were in session. we all also agreed that what happened in Atlantic City, stayed in Atlantic City. We wanted to preserve this safe space we had all created and was Christel’s vision, so that during this Unconferenc and future Unconferences, the people attending would be able to experience that same safe zone.

I felt that the deeper the conversations went and the more vulnerable we were all able to be was what enabled us to really connect to the others in that room. Everyone in the room either had a nonfunctioning pancreas or loved someone who did, so when someone would speak about an issue she or he was having, the people in that room “got it”!! I can’t speak to the actual conversations that took place but suffice it to say we all experienced something very special in Atlantic City, just like the Unconferences before ours.

We weren’t always in sessions, Medtronics and Dexcom each sponsored an evening cocktail like party with food and drinks where we were able to continue many of the conversations that had taken place earlier in the day. It was at these events we could sit one on one with somebody or in a small group and either talk about superficial topics or get down and dirty once again hitting on personal Diabetes experiences. It was also a chance to get to know other PWD’s & PLU’s on a more personal level. I thoroughly enjoyed these evening activities and was able to really connect with a few of my favorite people!

Before we knew it, it was Sunday and the Unconcference was coming to a close. We were all sad to be leaving these amazing people we had gotten to know and love. The majority of people left Sunday afternoon and evening but a small group of us were staying until the next day, so we got to hang out a little bit more but then Monday, it was our turn to say our last goodbyes until the next Diabetes Unconference in Las Vegas, February, 2017 when we would meet again.

My time with all my diabetes buddies energized me in ways I had not expected!! I was thinking that maybe I should get back to writing this blog in the hopes of touching even just one person! But I had become very disappointed with my blog the previous year and questioned why write it at all. I’ve felt for a long time since my pancreatectomy and failed islet cell transplant that I really didn’t belong to the Diabetes community. After all, people who develop any type of diabetes didn’t chose to have it. It just happened for a variety of reasons. But I had deluded myself into thinking I had kind of chosen to have diabetes when I chose to have my pancreas removed.  But talking with my D friends, they helped me see that I didn’t chose diabetes or even to have my pancreas removed. I was forced by my long standing chronic pancreatitis to have the surgery that resulted in my surgical type 1 diabetes. I then realized that this feeling of not belonging was what drove my feeling out of place when I arrived in New Jersey. I’m glad I stayed because my weekend there was simply AMAZING!!!

The following days after I got home I began researching some diabetes books written and suggested by some of the people at the Unconference & I started to read one in particular by Shawn Shepheard, called, “Life Is Sweet, Surviving Diabetes and a Whole Lot of Other Crazy Stuff.”  Shawn’s book led me to http://sugarfreeshawn.com where I binge watched a bunch of his videos. Between the Diabetes Unconference and Shawn’s inspiring words, I definitively decided to get back to my blog and tell my story with the hopes that one person would find it and not feel alone.

So, here I am folks!!! I’m back & I hope you have enjoyed reading this post and that you will enjoy reading posts to come in the future. Until then…Check!! Don’t Guess!!

 

Sandy

 

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